Where do the departed souls go?
Are they in the mid air? Or are they up there?
I really would like to know for since the day you left, tables turned
Your illness had sent us signs but I kept praying and believing a better day is coming each day
A day you shall be completely healed and ripped off the pain
I just didn’t want it to be the way it was, I wanted you back to life
I watched you have your last breathe
And I felt a thing inside me, a thing that told me it’s over now
Your illness, pain.. But it’s all God’s plan isn’t it?
A bitter pill for me to swallow.. How I wish you could hold on for a little more
You needed the rest I know but.. I needed more time with you
To appreciate your being
To apologize
To let out what I exactly felt
And to uncover what I’ve been hiding for so long
I didn’t think it was the right time yet to do all that but my timing was wrong
I wish I did it then
Now I am a lonely soul
I sit alone in the dark questioning the heavens
Why so cruel?
I no longer have a shoulder to lean on
Even when given an arm to hold
I am afraid of the past repeating itself
I am a coward to connections
My wounds still open
Painful scars
How I wish I knew the exact time you were to depart
For I would have given myself out for you to stay
💔💔💔
~ Gathoni Wamwondwe ~